Baby Steps

Even tiny baby steps are good, and can absolutely be classified as a miracle. John and I sat down on Sunday night and talked about several things in our life. Our budget, our calendar, retirement planning, and most importantly our goals. I haven't brought up adoption to J since our visit to the seminar at WIAA. We haven't talked about it or discussed it once together since. I have on the other hand been praying and fasting that his heart will be changed. Sunday night J brought it up - which in and of itself is a huge step. He has a deep desire to serve missions for the church as soon as possible - we discussed that and he compared his feelings about missions to mine about a daughter. He knows we are to serve missions when we are older and we need to start preparing financially for it now- I agree. He also said that we need to start praying together about our family - whether or not we are to adopt or whether we are to try to get pregnant again - or whether our family is already complete. He feels like we need to have another child in our home within the next 18 months - if that is the answer. I know this seems very small - but like I said it is a baby step - but a miracle none-the-less. The fact that he is even willing to talk about it at all is in itself a miracle. I know that J wants to do what our Father in Heaven wants - and so do I. Together we will make this decision. My heart and soul has told me that I have a daughter in China, I feel that is what my Father in Heaven wants for us. I just need to have faith that J will know the same.